I am a 2021 passout and joined a somewhat reputated company, straight after college. I remember how exicted i was when i joined ,not knowing the fact that how my life would change after that. There are a number of problems with my current team and project. Work is not good at all. i have barely coded 100 lines since i joined. Mostly my work is in testing.It is making me anxious as i didnt have much to put in my resume about the work when i will switch.

WFB is no where. i login at 9-9:15am and work till 10-11 pm around 3-4 days a week(my actual shift is from 10am-7pm,but workload forces my team to put extra work), which include about only 10-15 mins of lunch break. All i do is sit all day and work, gained 16kg of weigth in last 9 months. No time for family or friends. Weekends are usually spent getting anxeious about monday work.

There is barely any help provided from team mates as they are also so much busy with there work. My manager told me to try not to get any help from team mates and do all work by myself even though company has poor documentation. Even after putting so much efforts by my team, our manager told us today that we are not performing according to management's exception. He said You guys are consistensly being watched by the upper management and they are not happy ,so work hard. No one in my team(including me )has guts to say anything. We team mates used to discuss sometimes how such horrible conditions are affecting us mentally as well.

I am not aware that other IT companies have such conditions as well or not, if it is case in all of them, then i think i am not born for IT job. I can't just sit all day with my team lead asking me what i am doing currently after each hour or 2. But i am not quiting, trying to leetcode atleast 2-3 questions a day so that i can switch.

Sorry to post here, can't share such thoughts with my family so poured my heart here.Sorry for poor english or if i hurt someone with my thoughts i just logged out and totally devasted.