I graduated from a Top30 US university to earn my undergraduate degree in Computer Science Engineering in 2018.

Then due to my family expectation (My grandparents, my parents are either PhD or Master, and they have very strong achievements, actually one of them is Academician), I went to pursue PhD degree (I had also many master offers, but my family wanted me to do PhD)

After one year of PhD career, I switched my Phd Advisor. Then, after spending 3 more years, I only had 2 papers published in low-tier conference/journal. The whole PhD career to me is paper getting rejected -> getting rejected -> getting rejected.

What should I do now (Money is not a consideration)? Should I continue my PhD? Or Graduate with a master to find jobs (I did 900 leetcode questions and reached 2000 Contest ranking in 10 contests so should be able to find a good job?)? Or just Suicide?

I feel really depressed recently, suicide is always an option in my mind. My birthday is today, but I don't want to celebrate at all, I just want to die. I am such a failure, I don't deserve to live in this world. I am just a textbook of failure. I am dumb/garbage/useless/lazy/ugly/fat/trash.